Trust The Process

Hello Honeybees,

In February 2009 I attended TeamTrek www.teamtrek.com as part of my New Memphis Institute Fellows Class (S09). www.newmemphis.org   We spent the weekend in Arkansas in cabins and doing OUTDOOR team activities.  Although I live in the South I was born in Chicago and I LOVE the city life.

“Darling I love you but give me Park Ave.”

Spending a whole weekend with Mother Nature was NOT my idea of fun or team building. But since this was a major part of the program I packed my gear and got on the bus.

Actually this was the worst time ever for me be away from home and my kids.  My youngest son was in the hospital (non-life threatening), my oldest son was scared and confused, I was going thru a divorce, my soon to be ex was acting irrational and I was working on my MBA.  I was under so much stress that my son’s doctor gave me a prescription…… Go on the trip, you need a break, because you are not going to be any good to your boys  if you fall apart.

I’m so glad that I filled that prescription.

Taking this trip was a lifesaver.

I formed friendships that were and still are life changing.

I learned how strong I really am and that I can take on life and win!

There were several exercises that required me to dig deep.  Exercises that required me to climb, jump, trust my team members and trust the process.

This picture shows me at the lowest moment of the trip but it’s also the highest moment of the trip.

I was climbing a rock wall BLINDFOLDED….Did I mention I was blindfolded, as in no sight, cannot see? I had to trust my team member who was on the ground to give me directions. I was also linked to two other team members.  When this picture was taken not only was I ready to give up….I GAVE up.  I let go and hung in the air.  Everything that I was going thru in my life at that point hit me with full force.  I didn’t have the strength to go any further.

But it’s funny how God will send who you need and what you need at the right time

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I heard another voice talking to me, encouraging me not to give up. Miska and I bonded earlier in the trip and although we were on different teams she was there for me. She spoke of things that only she and I understood.  She gave me the courage to get it together and climb that wall.

I gathered my courage, said a prayer, turned around and climbed that wall.

Once the exercise was over all I could do was CRY!!

They were tears of JOY,

Tears of ACCOMPLISHMENT,

Tears of RELIEF

I came home ready to do battle with whatever came my way. My boys are healthy, smart and strong young men. I received my MBA. I survived my divorce and I still believe in love.  

I’m still fighting some battles but I have the faith and courage to know that I can WIN!!

Belinda  

Beewisdom- Keep trusting God. He will lead you in every step of the journey. Lailah Gitty Akita, Pearls Of Wisdom